Take a Bow-Rihanna (Cover)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCPPSJKAmW4

This time is a hardworking piece...hey I know what people say about song cover ok? Not many good words about it.....it's not creative, it's not original, and there's always better artists out there.

But this is me. This is a real me, spending an afternoon in the sun, by the window, carefully adjusting the camera before I started recording the song. I like it when I'm on my own. I like it when I listened to millions covers on youtube and finally decided my own rendition on guitar. I like to recite the lyrics even though I suck at it (lol those who knows me...!). I like it when I realized it's already dark and dinner time had past.....lol

Just to share and learn more about live singing :D

寫Jason Mraz演唱會

Release
Jason Mraz的演唱會, 是我釋放機的太多情緒的一個晚上. Beautiful Mass 開場, You and I both收場. 我再也收不住眼淚. 告訴我, 有誰能在Jason 的現場演唱時仍然對心說謊?

一分為二
兩次演唱會, 再短短五個月之中. 都與最好的朋友一同上Sydney享受如此音樂盛宴, 都等待著藍色的Stage被Jason與生俱來的光芒點燃, 在兩小時的饗宴中吼破嗓子, 拍腫雙手. 我的心偶偶滿載而歸, 卻也依分為二.

老歌
Not so usual, No stopping us, The remedy, Life is wonderful, Geek in the Pink, You and I both. 會想起四月的演唱會, 想起親愛的魚和華特, 會捨不得散場, 會不忍心沒和你們一起看, 會撐不住滾燙的心情沸騰, 在一切結束前偷偷敦在地上擦眼淚.

變化
Jason 這次用了更多肢體語言, 也讓Toga唱的更大聲, 還有好幾段講西班牙文雖然我不知道為什麼, 還有新的合聲編寫. Show的成分比上次多多了. 無法比較這種不一樣, 因為我一分為二的心, 在四月的concert中已無法被擊敗, 那是永恆而絕對的快樂. 而八月的心被大大滿足, 感染, 被非常有料的一場Show, 與非常珍惜彼此的Mrazy Seven.

寫於從Sydney回Canberra的Murrays車上

寫雪

10.8.08 Sun

從Sydney回Canberra的路上,下雪了!
冰如與水從天而來, 遍屍在Murrays的車窗上
原本以為是雨.

小時後喜歡下雨,
因為可以在車上,
看因為風力而好像在賽跑的水珠們
試著躲避雨刷的橫掃, 陶入雙戶邊緣的安全區.

我當時從來沒看到誰倖存
剛剛
卻在我出神望著起霧的擋風玻璃
回想昨晚演唱會的空前盛況時
找到了!
因為她們這次不是雨 是很冷的雨 冰塊雨
賽得過雨刷

等了一個童年, 差一點被遺忘的等待
今天在冰凍的南半球, 被實現.

太陽再如此一個雪天出現在北邊的天空
光亮了山和平野的原色
分不清是雪中有羊 還是羊身覆雪
她們在飄揚的雪片中
訴說著八月的故事.

寫於車上

The Start of Ending, Again.

I can't do it.
I can't pretend I'm not sad but in fact my tear ran out.

I can't do it.
I can't stand where you stood and still hear voices and songs echoing my sound, word by word.

It's not possible to do it.
I can't and I won't think about doing it.
I don't do it.
Because there's no way out as long as love remains.

The form of relationship that will not separate us.

So there goes the unspoken silence when it supposed to sound,
there is a cold feet upon the mere memory of comfortable company.

I can't do it.
Because I still see us,
we are not at the end.
But it ended.
Those stares and la viva belongs to only us ended.
The Ending started.
And they don't know it.

早知如此

早知如此, 何必當初

今天突然絕得這句話好經典.
最近我是待宰的鴨
被莫名其妙的事情填的滿滿的
一肚子委屈 於是話就突然特別多
可是沒想到這麼多話
全部都說給我沒有預料到的人

也是朋友
只是過去的一段時間
比較疏遠的朋友
很感謝....

不記前嫌
還願意在我如此混亂的時刻
聽我講話.
不帶偏見的justify
我很幸運也正在惜福.

只能說,
我的樂觀可能被我弄丟了
在匆忙的離別三個朋友之中
被哽咽的我弄丟了
我的吵鬧也突然怯場
在這個陌生的家.
我更寧願安靜的刷馬桶或讀小說
因為我疲倦講話要選擇場景

也疲倦演我不悲傷的戲
這樣的戲我演不來.
而且我也不習慣被比較.
我也不喜歡被比較

我是未完成的拼圖
東缺一塊 西缺一塊
能補上的那塊 跟樂觀一起遺失
在遙遠的彼岸 在淚灑的海灘
在自在的半年前 在自由的半年後
遙望著
我等待著被完成

我是很氣憤卻無法說話的布偶
蹈著不適合自己的舞步
張嘴卻無法發聲
實話是, 即使我能說 我也說不出口
我不確定你準備好了沒
我不確定我準備好了沒
我不確定我們之後會怎樣
我不確定我是不是真的想講

還是等這’離別後心碎綜合症’痊癒
我自然會找到定義我的樂觀和吵鬧?

其實我不在意
無論真相是什麼
或許我會從此停留在一個悲傷的點
然後變了一個人
喜歡與否
願意與否

有人知道快樂也是很累的嗎?

Gym in Shanghai

It was not just the fat attached all over makes me feel the guilt, but at the same time, the attention from everyone. Really, not just my parents, but also all my relatives, are worrying about my weight problem.

I know, I always know, that I've got at least 10 kg to lose. So I paid for the gym at ANU; I called out for my diet plan almost everyday; I bought those replacement meal thingy.......But it's about how seriously I take this problem I geuss, it's not how much I say I will do it.

The fact is, it never hit me. All the time, say since I was like 16, I've never thought it's urgent to lose weight, I'm not determining enough to do this.

A friend of mine says it's ok jofan, you're happy not on a diet. But everybody else says jofan, you'll live happier when you're lighter, because then you won't be bothered by all this losing weight crap. I agree to both of them. But just indecisive. So I casually work out, and casually put myself on diet.

It's casual. So mum and I went to this gym close to home. It was huge!!!!! And luxurious!!!! I should have brought my camera with me to show you guys.....haha, more interestingly was the people working out in there. They are mostly oldies! like 40 something people, wearing thongs. I mean, serious, I know doing weight training might not need you to wear sneakers, but man! That looks really funny. Chinese people treats gym as their own home, dressed absolutly imporperly.

After 1 hour cardio, I went into the changing room, exhausted, not expecting to get shocked or embarrased in any way. But I guess the reality never is so wishing. So I bump into a room of women, nakedly blow dry their hair, chatting, clip their toe nails.....I was like, WOW! Who said Chinese are conservative? They're open! Freely doing anything without any, I mean any clothes. And the clearns were just beside, you know, holding their mops in masks, watching everything. I mean, maybe not the naked bodies, but just doing their jobs. But but but, my point is, it was just way very weired@@!!!! I was shocked.

There was actually pointless to showered before going home. Because ever though it was just 20 minutes walk, I was all soaked again by the time I got back....

Anyway, hoping to see more interesting things in Shanghai in the next 18 days. And I'm going to, yes I'm seeting a goal here, go to the gym everyday! gogogo~!

忘了上海有多熱

七月三號 回上海的第三天

是個陰陰的天 其實該偷笑了
比起昨天的天氣 歐, 昨天. 我慶幸自己不是包子
不然會熟.

上海很熱.這是才剛下飛機不到１００小時的感言
而且很擠
三年半前的我竟然沒有發現
擁擠和潮濕是會讓人目眩的
我總是不到兩個小時就要跟媽咪去吃冰
對, 好險上海可以吃到剉冰
昨天晚上吃了紅豆綠豆牛奶冰 加粉圓和芋圓
今天吃到芒果冰
爽到!

不過 總是跟坎培拉有很大差別
才一會會兒 我竟然有點想念坎培拉
安靜
冰冷
無人跡

什麼?? 生命只有一次!!!

最近看了很多小說. 網絡小說.
剛剛是安妮寶貝的彼岸花
還沒看完 卻已經有一腔話....

生命只有一次
所以我的生命 我二十歲的主旋律, 三十歲的主旋律, 四十歲五十歲, 一輩子
都只有一首
突然間有點害怕
小擔心我因為沉迷於什麼而錯過創作我所能做的最好的曲子
然後 不能重來 只會因為變老
而慢慢喪失演奏的力度和表演張力
只會越彈越慢..

不知道我的生命會怎麼樣.
我老的時候 回顧一生的時候
究竟會看到什麼呢?

我會有個穩定的工作, 平安的家庭, 有一隻幸福的小狗和長滿熱帶植物的花園
還是浮浮沉沉 漂泊無數地方, 沒有鄰居卻有熟悉我的空中小姐?
錢呢?
我是會需要擔心吃不飽肚子的藝術表演者
還是犧牲樂趣卻收入可觀 成為坐辦公室的白領族?
愛情呢?
有一個我能信任的人, 一個能和我有同樣的人生目標,
能夠一起為此傻傻奮鬥卻樂次不彼, 能夠欣賞彼此的特色而不只是因為寂寞
能夠深愛對方卻不會遲疑指出缺點, 能夠一起老, 然後帶著笑回憶年輕的美麗嗎?

心呢?
我會是個有著什麼樣價值觀的人?

它們說,
你看到什麼東西 去過什麼地方 聽到什麼意見
要去想 用自己的聲音去想
在思考的過程中形成了一種觀點 就是你的價值觀

於是 有些人變成壞人
自私的人
而有些人成為弱者
卻可能很善良

我不知道也不確定一個人真正能控制的因素有多少
長大的過程中
有太多事件和變化
像浪一樣 無視於你的強弱 就這樣衝過來 席捲而去
價值觀這種事 似乎不會physically改變結果
只不過改變態度和心境
就像一個人終規會死 只是死時帶笑或含恨的不同罷了

可是不去做些什麼來改變命運好像又說不過去
好像真有其事 我們只是玩偶被操控一樣.
我拼命的想著 要怎麼樣選擇我要的Twenty something
卻發現自己很貪心
捨不得自由 卻也垂涎穩定的生活
想要家庭的溫暖和父母的陪伴 卻也想拿下獨立和對自己負責的生活壓力
我不知道....

我究竟有沒有選擇?

慢動作

於是 你三不五時消失
說嘗試用驚愕寫詞
不倉卒 只是孤獨

不熟悉的空氣和水
在濃稠的假期裡浮動
你不在乎 偏頭走路

出生 下一個靈感
說不定 豁達而喜樂
對不起 小說的人物

(後天就要考試了 我想是壓力大 開始寫一些虛幻不著邊際的東西 淺意識的我很吵鬧)

給函伶的信~

自從高中畢業後, 我已經三年沒有回去了....有的時候真的覺得跟台灣慢慢疏離
朋友交了新的朋友
政界換了新的總統
市場流行新的服裝
電視演了新的戲劇
唯一不變的, 好像是那股身為台灣人的警覺和大無畏

我這幾年在澳洲讀書
不用無名也不常逛街
卻習慣了交各國的朋友 跟大陸同學爭辯台灣立場
有的時候面紅耳赤 有的時候卻滿載而歸
從來沒想過自己有很重的愛國情操
卻在文化的大鎔爐裡 很大聲也很囂張的說著台灣的故事
好像在選什麼一樣...^_^

畢業後想留在澳洲呢!
澳洲的生活理念跟我的沒有牴觸
海岸海水和保礁 我真捨不得離開
加上現代化的Sydney, Melbourne, Brisbane
我絕得這正是我需要的交替生活

Random words....

Another Song Cover-'Shy That Way'

Ok this time I'm gonna say it clear. (Thank you my dear dear friends for pointing out my non-sense forward in the previous post. I admit it was almost impossible to understand! But the winner goes to Joanne Lee, congratulations to win the best interpretation of the Lucky Post!)

Anyway, Walter and I have been thinking about doing a cover for this song for a long time. Initially I was going to play guitar (just the chords) as well, so that he can play the guitar solo in the interlude. It would have sounded good, except for the fact that I really suck at guitar. In order to present the best, I decided I would just sing.

This one is the 6th take....Funny thing. I was really nervous, even the voice was shaking in the first couple of takes! I thought it was because we haven't been recording songs for a long long while and then I was sort of becoming cameraphobia....never so nature to have something there. I never mind people watching us performing, but a camera is beyond the stare of eyes. Maybe it was just my imagination, but I feel being watched in a strange way in front of the videocam.

But it wasn't too bad hey. 6 takes. We've done like 15 takes before yeh Walter? kkk.

Click here to Link to youtube file

Lyrics
'Shy That Way' by Jason Mraz and Tristan Prettyman
You know you’re stunning
You’re absolutely stunning
And I’m running always running
And now I’m crying
It’s only cause I’m caring
And if you were more daring
Maybe you’d stop staring
And come over and talk to me
Tell me bout how you’ve been waiting so patiently
And how you tried but I just turned away
And I’ll say yeah well you know,
I’m shy that way

Shy that way
Maybe I’m shy that way

Ohh you know you’re stunning
You’re absolutely stunning
But you’re always runnin
But I’ll catch up to you
The way you keep your distance is
Keeping my interest
So I’ll keep it persistent
Ohh maybe someday
Someway, somehow in some town
We’ll get together and
We’ll break it down
And I’ll ask why you’ve been
so shy, gotta be that way
Maybe baby, oh love, I like it that way

Shy that way
You know I love you so shy,
Shy that way

So keep it comin comin comin comin
Shy that way

There’s always too much talking
And I wanna just keep walking
But I keep staring baby
Keep staring
Though I may not know the right things to say
I’ll get it out to you one day

I’m shy that way
You’re shy that way
Do you like it
Do you like it?
When I’m shy this way?
Yes I like it
Yes I like it
When you’re shy

Shy that way

I like it
I like it shy
You know it’s alright, it’s ok
Cause we’re
Shy that way…

Youtube message

There's this Taiwanese guy wrote me some message in response to my youtube videos, saying that he was also very very fond in music, but when his parents found out he was doing band, they smash his guitar and sent him to Australia. So he's always delighted to see others playing music, as if his dream has been fulfilled.

He said he is probably a musician if he's not in Australia doing bachelor of mechanical engineering. I feel like he's achieving something now too and told him don't regret. 

In fact, I don't regret anything I've decided for my life so far. Music is like the happiest thing to do for me. Whenever we're doing recording, we do it till like 2:00 am. There are so much more than just singing and playing guitar in the sight of music, and I feel closer to the inspiration everytime by involving into it. 

I really appreciate the message by this stranger, by the words he sent to encourage me to do more in this. Maybe just like he predicted, someday I'll step into music industry to show my songs to the world instead of doing song covers. But o well, who knows what's gonna happen? I don't even know what to do next year! When the time comes, I need to be prepared, so no matter how busy I am now with my studies and reports and tute tests......I'm boosted to keep practicing. This is a commitment to myself here.....

Listening to Jason Mraz, I feel like becoming him one day. Do good music, Share good dreams!!

New Youtube Post-Jason Mraz "Lucky" (Cover)

Really happy to start doing recording against. Leaving something when I'm able to I guess. No regret, and purely for the happiness! Thanks Walter!

Click here for Youtube Link

Lucky

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

地震

四川地震. '官方公布》22069人死 1.4萬人活埋' 我無法想像那是多重的生命. 而中國, 卻只得又一次經歷痛, 今年.
他們說今年中國成為了全球焦點. 就我那天去看坎培拉奧運聖火, 我實在不覺得中國人準備好了. 沒有惡意, 只是說個事實. 那天, 只見平日幹譙中國政府的中國同學, 為了"保衛"聖火而身披國旗, 臉塗國旗圖案, 把國旗從車子裡探出來揮...好. 你說保衛國家跟支持共產黨是兩回事, 可是你怎麼還對那些說'We're not against Chinese people, we're against Chinese government'的西獨人吐痰? 你怎麼不理智的跟那些反對示威份子談要他們到別的地方別的場合去示威, 因為奧運是奧運, 不是你試圖宣揚宗教的機會. 反而，我看到的是類似領導的學生告訴大家’不要理他，是瘋子’．坎培拉聖火是和平的，但好像和平的很遲鈍．
我覺得讓中國舉辦奧運有點早. 大家把'中國舉辦奧運'這件事看的好像是中國國內的事. 然後超級自負的封閉起來, 好像14億人的運動盛會 不需要其他人. 對 我說, 大家. 包括政府跟人民. 看看學生們穿的衣服吧....＂我們的奧運, 我愛中國＂. 然後, 我只能說, 這種封閉的態度造成了今天其他國家要反你, 是因果. 對, 法國人很愛批評, 也只是用西藏事件否定其餘中國為奧運做的努力, 只因為整個事情不夠浪漫. 但你敢嘛?中國同學你敢批評嘛? 你敢看proxy開的那些封鎖網頁嘛? 我最不能相信的是海外留學生, 沒想到你有了訊息自由和言論自由之後, 做的第一件事情是忽視．
．．．．沒想到終於又開始寫ｂｌｏｇ的第一篇，　我火氣這麼大．